Stillness of the Heart

I ended up going for a short day drive with my mom yesterday. We both enjoyed each other's company although I didn't poured my heart out to her. The day was beautiful, no clouds in the sky. And I didn't wanna ruin it with any more tears.

I am going to take a test at 12:30 p.m. today for a County job I am applying for. I am scared. I am scared to fail it. It's a 3 hour test and although I found a sample test online, I don't feel as confident coz my heart is restless and my brain is tired.

I need my heart to be still even just for a moment. So I could pass this god damn test.

But I can't think about anything but D.

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