This Is It

Reality that is. I tried to push it back as much and as long as I can. But now, there's nothing more I can do but face it. Face this reality that I've been trying so much to run away from.

D called me while I was sitting in a park. It was just me and a family there. They were playing football - mom, dad, boy and a little girl. Above their cheers and laughters, D told me he can't come see me tonight and that he is leaving tomorrow. He will start his 5-day road trip to Nashville for his new job.

I tried not to cry. I tried not to sob coz I didn't want him to hear me crying. Yes, I am happy for him. But I'm also sad. As I previously mentioned. But I couldn't help it. I cried. I cried like a little girl who's mother just left for a long trip. I cried like I never did before.