No Coincidences

I picked up the book 'The Celestine Prophecy" for 25 cents last Sunday at a garage sale. I was actually planning to pick it up at the City Library and it was already on queue but funny enough, it was the first thing that caught my eye when I went to the school garage sale.

So I started reading it right away and it's beginning to affect me like the way "The Alchemist" did. It started talking about conincidences and how things do happen for a reasonn.

See, things like these mean a lot to me right now. I am at a point in my life where I am beginning to get bored, uneasy, agitated and unsatisfied. And the reality of getting laid off slowly set in over the weekend. I was actually beginning to freak out although I knew it wouldn't be too hard to find another job. It's just that I sort of feel like I was lost. I lost track of my vision, my passion. This is kinda embarassing but I got caught in a gossamer of financial freedom dreams. And the longer I was suspended in that gossamer, the more restless and lost I felt. I no longer knew what I wanted.

I began to think that it was probably a good idea if I listened to my parents. If I listened to my dad, I would have been a kick-ass engineer by now with 9 years of experience under my belt. I'd probably be driving an SL500 and own a condo. If I listened to my mom, I'd be a doctor by now with a few years of experience, working long hours and never having a social life. But at least I'd be financially secure. But guess what, I followed my heart so this is where I'm at.

So yesterday, as I was cleaning up my desk, I came accross some notes from an Institute I attended in San Diego about two years ago. I took a class in Leadership Through Self-Development and as I was flipping through my notes and handouts I saw my life's Mission and Vision Statement. And as I was reading them, the words seemed to leap from the pages. I felt so much life and energy from them and they ignited the passion within me. And suddenly, I was no longer suspended in that gossamer.

It wasn't a coincidence that I picked that class 2 years ago. Someone out there knew that I would need it sometime. And I needed those learnings now. I looked at my goals and my visions. And suddenly, life started rolling again.

So I accepted a social work position offered to me although I had to take a huge paycut. But I feel good about. I know I made the right decision. All that matters to me now is that I know that I know that this is what I really want. And I will hold on to this vision no matter what. All I want in this life is to make a difference, whether as a Social Worker or as a future Lawyer. It doesn't really matter, as long as I am making a difference in someone's life.

And all I need now is a little dose of luck and helluva perspiration and hardwork to ace the LSAT and get me into one of the top Law Schools in the country.

Okay, back to my reviewers. :)