Last Night's Dream

Last night I dreamt that I was in a hospital bed, giving birth. I saw the nurses and my physician asking me to push and then suddenly, the baby came out and I felt so relieved. I saw them cut the umbilical cord and I was so scared that my belly won't look good after they cut it.

I thought it was wierd for me to dream about giving birth. I do not dream of becoming a mother any time soon so this dream took me by surprise.

So I consulted a dream interpretation website. Okay, this is kinda silly but I did anyway. For fun. And here's what the dream interpreter has to say:

"To dream of giving birth, suggests that you are giving birth to a new idea or project. It also represents a new attitude, fresh beginnings or a major upcoming event. Alternatively, the dream may be calling attention to your inner child and the potential for you to grow."

Not a bad interpretation, eh? It sounds about right for me. Last night before I dozed off, I was thinking, wishing that I would just grow up and mature so I can handle life's punches in the wisest way possible. But I guess growing up is a process. It's not a phase I can just jump to. And I'm finding that growth sometimes is a painful process. Just like giving birth I guess.

I am at a phase right now where I just wanna be wiser about things so I don't screw anything up. I have been acting childish about some things, getting distraught and letting myself suffer unnecessary stress and I sit here wishing there's some miracle concoction I could drink so I can be grown up and mature instantly and not have to worry about silly and mundane things.

I wish there was a miracle concoction. I wish growth was a quick process but it's not. So I guess I'll just sit here and wait knowing that someday I will blossom into a mature, grown-up woman who's been through the exciting and at times painful process of growth and maturity.