Life's Principles

One thing I've learned in life is the fact that promises are shit. They're not worth anything. Not even promises written in blood. Promises don't guarantee anything.

So I decided to live my life without promises - I'm not making them and no, I am not asking for them. I think what we should do is to just do the best we can when we could. And never expect anything back.

Life should be easier that way. Life without promises means less hassle and less trouble.

And that's exactly what D and I have. We both know we care and love each other so much but given the distance and the uncertainty of what the future, D suggested it was best to keep our options open. No ties, no promises.

I told D though, that I care and love him so much that as of today's date, he's still the love of my life. I mean, c'mon, how the fuck can you stop loving somebody just like that? You can't. I can't. So I just have to live with the fact that I do love this man but I can't be with him. I will live my life to the fullest as I celebrate the fact that yes, I am capable of loving, even from a distance.

And he knows that I am aware about the unknown future. He doesn't know anything about the future and I don't neither. Hell, it would be a boring life if I knew what tomorrow holds. It would suck to know the future. And life wouldn't be as fun anymore. Who knows, I could even get into an accident and die later on my way to the gas station to fill up my car before I go to bed. Who knows? And sometimes, when I talk about dying, people around me seem to be terrified. They react like death should be some forbidden topic.

But I guess it's natural for people to fear the unknown. Death is an unknown, it's a mystery. But isn't it true that young as I am, I could still possibly die tomorrow or next week or I could die in my sleep tonight. No one knows.

And yet I choose to live my life to the fullest. Taking more time to appreciate the heat of the sun on my skin, the rustling of tree branches outside my window, just little things that make life more colorful and beautiful. One thing I've already learned from my job is to not sweat the small stuff. And I found out how life can be so much easier if you don't sweat the small stuff.

So Wave's life's principle # 1: No promises. Hell no.
and life's principle # 2 : Don't sweat the small stuff.

I'm sure more learnings will come. But for now, I will stick to these two principles as I continue to live this wonderful, crazy and exciting journey called life.