The Joy of Living on My Own

I walked into my apartment earlier, flipped the switch and suddenly, I was overwhelmed with this feeling of joy and contentment. I turned my rock fountain on, dimmed the lights and popped open a bottle of wine which I am happily sipping right now as I am writing this.

I look around this place and I see happiness, love, and comfort all over it. It's not that big of a place. It's only a one-bedroom apartment with a little porch in the back. But the love of my life did everything to make this place a home, a place where I can take refuge, away from the cares of this world.

When I met D, this place was bare. Okay, I'm going to be honest, it was a pig sty. But if you look at it now, my sweetheart turned it into a wonderful home. It was a gift, a surprise he did for my birthday. I felt kind of guilty, because I know he spent a lot of time, energy and money to make my apartment a home and all I gave him on his birthday was a shirt and a hoodie. But I promise I'll think of a better gift next time.

I love this place. Every single thing here, the celtic mirrors he put on my walls, the curtains he made, the dimmers he installed, the fountain, the lamp.... everything. And he topped it off with an awesome surround sound system that plays soothing music that I could relax to at the end of the day.

I have to admit, sometimes, I feel sad, just because it's my first time to be really on my own, without family or roommates around. But my sweetheart keeps reminding me that the truth is, I am never alone. That he is there for me no matter what. And yes, I "see" him here. I feel him here. And I feel his love around me, not just because he filled this place with beautiful things but mostly because here, he has showed me how much he loves me. We created beautiful memories here that made this place lovelier than the way it was.

And right here in this place, he made me feel the intensity of what we have, something really strong that neither time nor circumstance can destroy.

I love this place. I love my man. I love this life.